This is not from the book, but I need to write. I know it helps me in the classroom to know what my students go through when being forced to write on demand.
Fear - I can appear fearless, but in truth I have one great fear - failure. If I know I even have a chance of success I have no problem trying over and over again, but in areas where I am less comfortable and unsure and where I have little or no success it is extremely difficult to overcome the fear.
Risk - Not crazy risks, but actually taking a chance on something wonderful is the goal. And so far this year I am moving towards facing the challenges and letting the pieces fall where they may. Really understanding that as long as goodness and kindness and positivity are the ultimate goals, the risk is worth it.
Truth - it seems this year is all about love and relationships. Or more specifically romantic relationships. I have not felt worthy of having that type of relationship and so I put up all types of roadblocks, brick walls and in fact it was locked down like fort knox. So, far so good, moving slowly and getting used to the water. Truth, I need the time and the space and yet I am carefully moving towards the deep end where I can no longer touch the bottom, but I trust myself to stay afloat and move yet deeper into the water.
What I know is I am feeling much more comfortable in my skin and I believe I am worth it (most of the time) and I can face my fear, take a risk and live my truth.
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