What can happen in a second

I received a book - 642 Things to Write About and that made me think. I don't write enough. And so this blog was born. I realize I am behind, but somewhere I will make up the extra 5 days. 

Today's writing prompt - WHAT CAN HAPPEN IN A SECOND

In just one second you can fall in love. This second may come hours, days, months or even years after you have met the person. But the moment comes when you are hit in one single second by the clear knowledge that YOU ARE IN FACT IN LOVE. 

Come on you know it does happen. Think about mothers and their babies - ONE SECOND is more than enough to fall in love. 

Now, sometimes I forget this can happen, but recently I have realized it is true, even for poor emotionally unavailable me. And I have to work on this and live in the single second of emotion. For me, sometimes, the second is all I get. Better enjoy it. 

And in that one beautiful second there is true love and true giddiness and true happiness and if I forget about all those magical seconds I will become a sad human being. Oh, wait, that actually happened/happens. TO ME.

Right now I am pretty sure I am in love with someone. He has no idea and honestly I am okay with that - for now - because I want to enjoy it and then share it, just in case he doesn't feel the same way. And the one thing I want to hold onto is, it only took a second and then it happened. And if it happened to me, maybe it has or can happen to him. Maybe, he just hasn't had that second yet.

I have decided it is fine for me to just sit back in the revelation I still can feel this way and that I am worthy of loving someone and having someone love me.  This may not seem like enough to the rest of the world, but for me it is a huge step toward just letting myself feel however I am going to feel. You know the little feelings, the big feeling and the overwhelming feelings. In the past year I have primarily felt sadness, and with good reason, but I have not and will not let the sadness take over my life completely. Honestly, life is a journey and should be a journey with emotions all along the way.

So here it is. My second. The second when I looked at him, heard his voice, his laugh and realized - Wow, I could really love this person. It feels scary and awesome.